Tonight I have had on my heart some scripture that I felt compelled to get out of bed and share with you beginning with - Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see...I was thinking of how much this applies to everything I do and everything I hope for. I have never really been a teacher but as it goes God always will call us to do something that we may not feel we have the ability to do but I can also see how he has brought to me women's bible studies in a way that is helping me to prepare for my mission in Sudan. An amazing study from DBC" The Titus Two Woman" and "The Remarkable Women of the Bible" my hope and goal is to take these studies to Sudan to help the women there learn Gods will for their lives and the importance of who they are in Christ. If only all women including myself could grasp who we are in Christ that we would not give ourselves away easily or feel insecure, that we would find our security in Christ.... that we would comprehend our inheritance with him.
Psalm 16:1-2 Keep me safe O God for in you I take refuge. I said to the Lord "You are my Lord apart from you I have no good thing"
Psalm 16:5-6Lord you have assigned me my portion and my cup you have made my lot secure The boundary lines have fallen for me in sweet places surely I have a beautiful inheritance.

My hope for Sudan: To make disciples that will go on to teach long after I am gone. This past Sunday we talked about the lessons we have learned from "Eve" that although we do not walk with God in the Garden of Eden we still have the same privilege she did of walking with God everyday, that we do have life to give not just to children but to the people we care for and encourage and through the sharing of our spiritual life. The world would not be the same without women God said himself in Gen. 1:27 he created man in the image of God ,male and female he created them. Gen. 1-31 God saw all that he had made and it was "very good" Eve was God's last and most beautiful creation and every woman after her shares in that inheritance and although at times our heart and flesh may fail the Lord is our portion and we are his. So now just 47 or so days out from heading to Sudan the joy in my heart overflows and I am grateful to go. I know there will be challenges physically and spiritually but I go with faith in God's ability not my own. Please continue to pray for me. And thank you for being my outlet to ramble all my thoughts.

So it's only about six weeks before I head off to Sudan. Part of me has been so excited about this opportunity and part of me has been feeling some anxiety which I know is only the devil's way of trying to discourage me but I remind myself that my strength comes from God alone and that he will provide. I think I was feeling doubtful about what I have to offer and how it will all work out like maybe I needed some great plan but after some prayer and encouragement from my brothers and sisters in Christ I began to have more peace in that God has not called me to go and do something that he is not certain I can do. I think the best thing I have to offer is relationship, my heart for God and the great mercy the Lord has shown to me I can share with the Taposa women, I think that we all are striving to be more like Christ and that we will never do it perfectly, but if we can support one another and encourage one another and show compassion to one another and most of all intercede in prayer for one another we are doing exactly as God has called us. For some of us it means showing compassion to a co-worker that has not been kind, for some encouraging a friend in need, for others being a witness to a neighbor, and for me it is loving on the women and children in Sudan. Most all great plans we make are just plans.....and it will go just as God has planned. I would like to add a couple of prayer request at this point.

Prayer Request :
*God's working in my heart so that I may have peace and complete faith in God to provide for all my responsibilities and relationships left behind as well as the new relationships God has already planned.
*Please continue to pray for my health and safety and that of my team members.
*For the women's conference happening this month in Sudan that it may open doors and hearts for future teams and greater relationships with the Sudanese people.
*God's provision for my business now, while I am away and when I return.

Praises:
*Opportunity to share with one of the Senior Adult classes at church about the work in Sudan.
*That Fred(my dog) will have good care while I am gone.
*Opportunity for Bible study with a friend to keep me grounded and accountable.

Ok so last night I had thoughts just flowing out and wrote to you but then........I accidentally deleted all of it UGH....So now I will attempt to remember what I had shared for you. Thank you for being understanding of the process of thoughts to written word. My punctuation and grammar may be off but the thoughts will still remain.
Sunday is one of my favorite days I so enjoy the fellowship and encouragement and of course a nap on any other day cannot contain the same peacefulness to me.
God always coordinates our lives like a symphony the kind that just leaves you breathless and in awe of just how good our God is, because of it's pure beauty and the way that it fills your heart with joy and pain at the same instant. Other times we can not see the forest for the trees, but yesterday I was in awe of my saviour! I spent most of my day in prayer with expectancy of God's presence and He does not fail. He has left me no doubt that he can use me in-spite of my imperfections and lack of knowledge if I am willing he will provide everything I need in the exact moment that I need whatever it may be. It is still my responsibility to continue to grow and learn and to press into him with my prayers this I do know.And although there is still much of me that is simply under God's grace and mercy for which I am so humbly thankful. I am still beyond words that he has called me to Sudan. For those of you who are reading this for the first time or do not know me me this is my second trip to Sudan after the first trip God just simply filled me with the desire to return and a love for his people there. Now he has opened the door and I am so excited!
I will be traveling with one other to meet with a medical team in Yei and then meet with a team from my own church after that in another (town) after they leave I will be the only American in the local pastors compound ( I may have an opportunity to meet and work with two other Americans but this is not certain)so I thought this would be a good opportunity to add a few prayer request.

Prayer Request-
*Safety of my team and myself
*That God's will and provision cover every aspect of preparation, from the physical, spiritual, and financial
*The Taposa people will have open hearts to hear God's word that even now they will begin to have dreams and visions to know how good and mighty he is